The end of last year and the beginning of this year has been....(and still is) filled with some mental turmoil about a few important things that I have NO idea what will happen with them, where we will be, and how we will be effected. One thing that is FOR SURE is that there WILL be some sort of change....soon.
I PRAY....all the time. I say short prayers all throughout the day, but let me tell you....the devil is at work...CONSTANTLY. In 100% honesty I have been WORRYING about the current situation I have found myself in NON-STOP. I've been praying and asking for guidance, strength, needed knowledge, etc. The one thing that I HAVE NOT been doing, is actually TRUSTING the GOOD LORD to let the HOLY SPIRIT work in my life. A beautiful ANGEL friend made me quite AWARE of this -this past weekend. Let me tell you....sometimes you need to have someone take you and SHAKE YOU!
I sent in something that would exhibit my strong interest in something that seems like it could, positively, affect our lives - and after I sent it....EVERYONE in the room PRAYED over it. My sweet friend, her sister-in-law, my sweet little girl, my husband, and myself. It was APPARENT that the HOLY SPIRIT was in that room, right there with us. We all felt it! Yet somehow... I found a way (with the devil's help) to continue to WORRY about the situation that we just GAVE TO GOD TO HANDLE.
I'm the kind of person that likes to be PREPARED. It's important to know that I DO NOT have control over anything, EXCEPT my actions and reactions. So...I trot into my friend's sewing room and start asking her what MY next steps should be IF this doesn't happen, or if THAT happens, or what the result COULD be.
She stops me and reminds me of the prayer we just had, the presence of the HOLY SPIRIT. She flat told me....YOU NEED TO LET IT ALONE AND LET THE GOOD LORD TAKE CARE OF IT. If this situation doesn't pan out like I would like it to...that door will close and another will open. I know that. I need to act like I believe it!
Let me tell you....I had an OVERWHELMING feeling of PEACE yesterday. So much so....that it felt like something was OFF kilter. It made me realize how much WORRY was in my life. I actually stayed up until almost 11pm letting Kylee make me dinner (with her play food and kitchen). I was also able to see things a little clearer. I FOCUSED on what I DO know. The things I don't....I won't worry about.
I've also found myself on the edge of a REALLY interesting place that I always wanted to be....that place where you THROW all the WORRIES, EXPECTATIONS, what people think you HAVE to do/be to be successful OUT THE WINDOW!! (Watch out, so you don't get knocked in the head.) This has to do with ALL of life, not JUST the current situation.
Life is TOO short to WORRY about all the things that COULD be. The bottom line of it all is: What will be, will be. I need to ENJOY life and TRUST that we will be okay...no matter the outcome. I DO know that, I just have to start acting like I BELIEVE it and LIVE it.
It takes quite a bit for me to get OVERWHELMED. I was there. In ALL situations KNOW that GOD is the end all, be all, ALL-KNOWING SAVIOR of this world and YOUR world.
I want to leave you with a few quotes that have helped me rein in my thoughts a little over the past few weeks. Thank you TWITTER! GO FIND ME!!! @hdskaspar :) That would make me happy.
"Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase." Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.
"The only thing that makes life possible is permanent, intolerable uncertainty not knowing what comes next. - Ursula K. LeGuin
"Someday could be one moment away." - Disney
"The only thing we have to fear is fear itself." - Franklin D. Roosevelt
"I want to feel my life. I want to stop agreeing to things I don't really want." - from Living Out Loud (1998)
"Let no man pull you low enough to hate him." -Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.
"Know that the pain will pass, and, when it passes, you will be stronger, happier, more sensitive and aware." - Mel Colgrove
"Men are not prisoners of fate, but only prisoners of their own minds." - Franklin D. Roosevelt
"Ambition and love are the wings to great deeds." - Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe
"In the long run the pessimist may be proved right, but the optimist has a better time on the trip." - Daniel L. Reardon
"Don't go through life, grow through life." - Eric Butterworth
"The most important persuasion tool you have in your entire arsenal is integrity." - Zig Ziglar
"Keep your chin up." - Disney
"Man imposes his own limitations. Don't set any." - Anthony Baily
"A man, as a general rule, owes very little to what he is born with. A man is what he makes of himself." - Alexander Graham Bell
"You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough." -Mae West
"Strong reasons make strong actions." - William Shakespere
"I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it." - Maya Angelou
"A little nonsense now and then is cherished by the wisest men." - Roald Dahl
"The pessimist complains about the wind; the optimist expects it to change; the realist adjusts the sails." -William Arthur Ward
"You cannot live your life to please others. The choice must be yours. " -Alice in Wonderland (2010)
"People may forget what you said but they'll never forget how you made them feel." - Maya Angelou
"If you can imagine it, you can achieve it; if you can dream it, you can become it. " - William Arthur Ward
I live my life with the constant thought to BUCK UP BABY!! Be aware that sometimes our RESPONSIBILITIES, FEARS, DRAMA, UNCERTAINTY...can CONSUME us - before we even know it. Stay steadfast in PRAYER and look for your ANGELS.
GOODNESS GRACIOUS, THANK YOU JESUS...for being a presence in my life and guiding me when I feel lost!... "but the path of the just is like a shining light: it advances and increases, even to the day of completion." - Proverbs 4:18
I have 2 fun (at least they are fun to me) blogs coming out this week yet. Stay tuned and thanks for reading!