Untethered Thoughts from a Thinker

 Does anyone else just think? Like spend any amount of spare or quiet time, lost in thought? 

As I sit here typing this, I could be asleep. I could do what I actually stayed up to do & now I have over thought myself into the here and now. I could either capture the little mind urchins, that agitate me & hand them over to Jesus or....ignore them completely.....which I am clearly not good at. 

This ENTIRE day I have felt this nag of something other than what I am doing. I have done all the things that I think should be done today (besides the one thing that I have over thought into....still today, but a tomorrow share.) So....I chose to take to writing. 

It intrigues me how we can see the need for so much improvement, at the same time we witness the blessed fruits of progress. Seems....oximoronical....if that is a word...but it's legit. I feel like it is my daily life. The two do co-exist. 

The purpose of me writing today, is to attempt to satisfy the nagging feeling of doing something other than what I have spent my day doing. To feel some sort of....release, confirmation, satisfaction...............................................and maybe to just see the response, if there is a response. I'm really good either way. More curious.......and vulnerable-feeling, than anything. 

This, pretty clearly, is a brain-dump in blog form. It's like the "stuff" around all the practical thoughts swirling around and the remnants of.....untethered, open, free-flowing thought. 

In some circles....people may be concerned for me. In other circles...."intrigued" would be a more accurate word. In another, a complete openness to experience all of whatever this is (lol :))....and to yet another....squirrelly....maybe even avoidable squirrelly. 

This seems like quite an odd entry to share. The unsatisfied feeling of today is also a little odd. 

Benefits of Sharing: Others identify with it. It helps someone. It makes someone feel less weird. It satisfies the nag. It opens up a door, I never knew existed. 

Reasons not to Share: People will think I'm weird. People will think I'm off. Opens myself up for judgement.